Replied By: santacruz25 on Feb 16, 2012, 2:30PM - In reply to mmeurich
Thank you for sharing your story.  I wish you peace.
Replied By: kjh14225 on Dec 12, 2011, 3:21PM - In reply to mmeurich
YEs talking about it helps...

But the more I come out about being a victim the more I find I am very emotional now instead of being the stoic emotionless rock I once was.

I'd like a happy medium.
Replied By: kjh14225 on Dec 12, 2011, 3:17PM - In reply to mmeurich
Sad, I never thought about it, but I blamed myself for being raped as an adult later in life. I put myself in that scenario and talked to the men...shame on me for not seeing the red flags. But when you look back it all stems from that lack of self esteem that changes everything in life.

I prefer to not be attractive. Men find me attractive then back off...I feel used and hurt later. I'd rather by unattractive, at least if they like me I know they like me and not just think I'm a trophy to use and dump later. I am too emotional to be able to have  arelationship based on a physical relationship.