My attention addiction has been under control for over 10 years.  Sometimes I feel like people don't think I have feelings because "all I want is attention" when it is not.  I need to express feeling like everyone else so Iam going to say what is on my mind.  You don't have to read or reply.  Just pass it over.  Since I was a kid I was abused and as a adult I have always been on a self-punishment mode.  No I am not doing any harm to myself now and not sucide eaither.  I was in and out of mental hospitals for 10 years.  Now all I do is I don't believe I don't deserve to lose weight.  I am 270 pounds.  My weight is nothing but going up.  My Mom wants to take me to exercize & eat right but you can take a horse to water but you can't make them drink.  I don't even take photo's of myself.  I don't even look at myself in the mirror.  I just focus in on my hair & that is that.  Remember you don't have to read or reply.  Just pass it over.