My attention addiction has been under control for over 10 years. Sometimes I feel like people don't think I have feelings because "all I want is attention" when it is not. I need to express feeling like everyone else so Iam going to say what is on my mind. You don't have to read or reply. Just pass it over. Since I was a kid I was abused and as a adult I have always been on a self-punishment mode. No I am not doing any harm to myself now and not sucide eaither. I was in and out of mental hospitals for 10 years. Now all I do is I don't believe I don't deserve to lose weight. I am 270 pounds. My weight is nothing but going up. My Mom wants to take me to exercize & eat right but you can take a horse to water but you can't make them drink. I don't even take photo's of myself. I don't even look at myself in the mirror. I just focus in on my hair & that is that. Remember you don't have to read or reply. Just pass it over.