I finally found my stride  and now on my way to a more healthy me! I realized that This blog is not very supportive except for my dear wonderful friend Carol! I have been doing weekly update on my Facebook page so please try to find me and friend me I would love to have you be a part of my new journey!
 
Today I am sitting her on my second day of IV therapy of steroids for my MS, I had another flare and lost vision in my right eye and weakness all over my body! But after the first day of therapy I seem to be doing better and the vision is a little better and I seem to be stronger! Now for the bad part <y heart is racing and I am having trouble breathing and I have  gained 17lbs over night! WOW I just could feel it I now when I was up all night with my mind and body jumping all over the place! I am scheduled to follow up with my primary on Wed. because I can not get scheduled back into the neurologist office before July 12!

My diet Blog has turned into a struggle for my life story right now, but as you see these thing change our weight and our attitude about ourselves! Right now I would love to sit down and just eat and eat but I know with this weight gain, I have already been crying because of how hard I am trying just to survive this emotional roller coaster! I will check back in in a few day after I visit my primary! Thanks for following me, and we will be back on the diet soon!
 
We you sit in a room , you may be alone, the television is on, you might be thinking that you will always be alone and then you look to the foot of the bed and your dog is looking at you with that slight tail wag, you realize that you are the only person that will be able to release those feelings that have haunted you your whole life!

Have you been emotionally or physically abused? check✔

Have you always felt that you were a good person, but made to feel horrible about yourself? check✔,

Are you an emotional eater, hoping that food does and always has made you feel better? check✔

Well seems to me I fit all the criteria for someone that needs help, but no financial resources, to get that help, so that one day I will keep trying to kill myself with my eating habits and realize that my Me get worse when I do not eat!!

Surprise...I have known this for years but struggled to admit it, because you know that chocolate cures everything....So my journey begins! No excuses I would like to feel better, emotionally and physically
 
For anyone who has ever struggled with a chronic illness, and has tried for year to hide it because you can not see it on the outside, my advice to you is don't, when your illness becomes a reality to those around you they are upset that you have not shared it and still struggle to believe that you have an illness!

After my husband passed away 3 years ago, I was hit hard with a relapse of my MS which at that time had been relapsing and remitting, and I seem to get back to what some would call normal! I now am in a second phase of my MS that is called secondary progressive, basically when my MS affest something it does not go back to normal and the pain gets worse everyday, I have tried the medications they made me sicker, I have tried special diets and could not stick to them, I am so lost in my thoughts of feeling bad that I never shared my illness with anyone, except my husband, that I feel like I am still trying to hide from the MS! It is not working, I even gave up on my Doctors, and started trying everything on my own..I am wrong, I will be going back to my neurologist in the next few weeks and even though I know he will be upset!

I will try to stay positive and quit fearing the new I do not want to hear, because no one knows our bodies better than we do, I am going to try to get help, I live in pain everyday, I am overwieght and mad that I can not be the person I was just a few years ago! Thank you to those of you hear that have wondered how I have been doing, but I was even hiding from you....I did not want to admit how bad I am doing! I am going to try harder everyday!
 
I have been off the grid for almost 3 months! I have been blessed that my daughter is helping me and we are looking to buy a home together!


My MS has taken over some days seem worse than others! I am a emotional eater and I get nothing from it but weight gain! I have lost my 20/20 tablet in my move so when I can afford a new one maybe I will be able to get started! I so wish that I would make myself a priority and if I could get some weight off maybe I would not hurt so bad!


Why is it you know what you have to do but fail when you are by yourself? I need a trainer and an emotional support that makes me want to help myself...Sorry that I am complaining about my struggles but if I can get the aggravation out maybe I could convince myself I am worth it!
 
Well..So many changes in my life and I can not believe what it feels like to feel so overwhelmed!


I am truly trying to watch what I eat, but I am living with my daughter while I look for new home, the move has left me ill and worn out! I wish to feel better and that my fairy Godmother could help mr look and feel better for the holidays!


I try to put make up on and smile and try to do something everyday, I wish that I could have someone to help me with exercise to help me get stronger, I am truly trying!


I will be checking in after I find a new home and I can get started with the 20/20 plan again!! Thank you for evertyones support!! Holly
 
Well my weigh in was not very good~ I am at 216, I lost 2 pounds this month but physically it is the worse month yet! I hurt my back and I have been struggling walking to the bathroom let alone trying to get physical the way I am suppose to! I will be moving next month so I am being careful with my back but I do not want this as an excuse! I am worth this diet and I need to keep pushing! I do not think I would have hurt my back if I would have been in better shape, I need some core exercises the Doctor says as I can barley get out off the bed!! AAAGGHHH! If you can think of good exercises I am open for any input!!

I will be checking back in in a couple of weeks my goal is to lose 8lbs in September! Thanks for reading my blog I would love to hear your story!
 
Well I just finished my 2nd go around with the first 5 says on the 20/20 plan!! I was not able to exercise the way I needed to and I am very swollen from the Prednisone! I still lost another 4 pounds and I am down to 218 pounds so I have lost a total of 14 lbs.! I am a little frustrated and my primary doctor said it was normal, but My arms are measuring a little larger than they did 5 days ago! I hate my arms, they are my weight holders, they are so big, but of course they say the steroids can make you swell up! I sure am hoping that the weather cools soon...LOL I guess that will be Halloween so I can exercise more! My MS has really kicked my butt!

I am not going to use it as an excuse, but I am reminded everyday that that my life revolves around a chronic illness! I am going to keep up with the diet especially the 20/20 foods..easy to make, follow and I truly love the hardboiled egg on crackers for meals and of course I love the apple with yogurt and cinnamon for breakfast it keeps me full..I do add a few drops more of the lemon juices, I think it helps with the hunger! I do try to get to the pool but the temp is almost 100 in the water and that is to hot for my body, but what do I expect the morning lows are in the upper 90's right now and I really am afraid to go to the gym alone, balance issues makes me fearful to go alone! So I turn on music and try to dance for 20-30 minutes everyday!

I hope you all are doing good on your diets...Let me know you all inspire me when I hear from you! Thank you all! Holly
 
What an amazing month of discovery! How I looked at food as a way to soothe my pain and emotional troubles and "catching" my mistakes! I have lost 10lbs, (I will share all the totals at the bottom of this post) of course I was hoping for more, but even if I lose 10lbs each moth I will reach my goal in 1 year! So I am staying positive!

But a look at the diet plan and the food, the book and how if you follow this step by step...YOU CAN NOT FAIL!! Even with my physical problems, and taking steroids for disease control, I lost weight! But what I truly find amazing is my heart rate, my blood pressure, and my stomach, I do not have as much gas and very little heartburn, which I suffered from both before the diet! The original 20/20 foods really are good solid staples that when you follow the recipes, they are good!

 As I got through phase 1 and followed through with phase 2, the food was a little time consuming to make, but once I got use to this way of cooking it became easier! Phase 3 the food is really good and at this phase I truly believe that your family can join in with these meals so you are not having to cook extra meals!! I know before my kids moved out of the house that was always an excuse I had, I have to cook separate for my family, with this diet, that excuse is gone! My grandkids even like some of the snack options, the best PB&P, peanut butter on rye crackers sprinkle with cinnamon, I top mine with plums and cinnamon as in the book I top the grandkids with raisins!! Just totally thrilled!

I will be continuing this plan and hope that I will be able to share this with as many people as possible! Thank you                     

                                                                                                          TOTALS

WEIGHT- 232                                                    1 month 222        Lost 10 lbs.

WAIST BELLY 50" 
                                           43"                          -7 "

 LOWER ABS 49"                                             45"                           -4"
HIPS             49"                                                46"                           -3"
 
 ARMS        L 18"    R 19 1/2"                       L-16 3/4" R 17"          -1 1/2"

THIGHS     L 27"    R 26"                 L- 26"           R-25"                       L 24 1/2"  R 24"

YOU CAN LOOK AT PREVIOUS BLOGS FOR MEASUREMENT IN BETWEEN! And please remember exercise has been difficult due to my MS and I am still losing, imagine what the totals would be if I could some aerobic!!
 
I Usually only write about my 20/20 diet plan but to know about other things going on in my life with health, I know I need to acknowledge what is truly going on to face the truth!

 We have had extreme heat in AZ this year and I had mentioned this before, but in years passed it would be easier to recover, when I would walked into a cool place after an hour or so I would feel better! This year that seems to have all changed, and I guess I knew that, when my last appointment with my neurologist he told me he felt that my MS had moved to secondary progressive and that I might not heal that I may get worse!

 The medication I was on for relapsing MS seemed to be making me sick I was on Plegridy for 7 months and the switch to Aubagio an oral medication, because the injections were making me sick and I had never had that problem in over 20 years! I then suffered numerous pneumonia, and lung infections along with skin and bladder issues. After discussing this with my Neurologist, that I felt the meds were not working any more and that they seemed to be making me sicker...I was spending 10-15 days in bed!

I took myself off the meds and decided to get healthy I tried numerous diets but non seemed to work every time I was not well I would be put on prednisone and I would swell up and felt like I was starving all the time.

This month I have been so proud of myself for going off my meds and trying to go natural vitamins, essential oils and different foods. But here I am getting ready to do my one month weigh in and I am in a relapse and not wanting to go to the doctor...I know I need prednisone I am going downhill, but I do not want to ruin my diet! I am going struggle until the 23rd to get one month of dieting in, and I have upped my intake of Turmeric intake and cinnamon. And I have mad a peppermint  blend of essential oils for inflammation and hunger control. I am giving myself this time to try, but I needed to document what was happening for my own benefit! I have not seen my Neurologist since he was so upset when I said I wasn't going to take any more immune suppressing medications! Wish me luck and check back in, 3 more days to my 1 month weigh in! Thank you Dr. Phil for this program.... I love it!  
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