I dont understand why life is giving the Perpatrator so many chances. He is believed to  be above the law. He has had over a dozen toxic relationships through his master mind manipulation and abusive controlling behaviors. I dont understand how he escaped the Child Protective services division in West Virginia. I dont understand why they failed to notify me. I dont understand that She is not in my custody for she is a National Victim of Crime and he still has her. I dont understand why she is not with me. I just dont understand, Is it because I have still yet a retainer to pay? I dont understand, her safety is at risk. Not from just the Perpatrator but her own things she battles. She should be with me. Lord Ill take my blessings now. Lord all my children with me, like a family supposed to be.

I will no longer call him a perpatrator if he gets proffessional help and commits to changing to a better human. Right now he is a perpatrator. He is continuosly mentally abusing my daughter STILL. He gets help than I will stop the remarks and FORGIVE HIM and all of us can co parent in harmony. He is refusing to believe he is not right. He blacks out. Anger issues. Compulsiveness issues. A Bully. Offers materialistic possessions to shut up. Offers money to keep quiet. Convinces her to lie to me when he steels the phone I pay for her to use for safety. He will manipulate her to lie, "no mom he dont have my phone". Last week he hid her favorite clothes and is predjudice when she wears Jordans. He thinks its ghetto.

In September he pushed her by the neck and throat area, admitted to the therapist he may have she was so manipulated by her father she didnt report the incedent. He is abusing her in so many ways. Even a day after court was dismissed on December 7th he grabbed her by the arm and left a bruise. He is a perpatrator. Not only is he abusing her he has done it to me. He is continuously doing it.

She is confused. She has met so many women. My daughter started he period at age 9. Her father manipulated her on 3 different women to say "this is my first period ,I dont know what to do"? Like this is a sick person and Im just not understanding why the cards are falling wrong. He needs to be locked up or some serious proffessional help. He isnt going to change on his own. He needs made to change by a Judge because his behavior is a Nuissance to society. When he hands her over and gets all these issues addressed. Maybe some medicine, then I will no longer address him as the perpatrator. But for now, he disgusts me.
Wow, put her in Prison.... Not much too blog here. Manipulation is a disgusting thing. Really. I am really angry at this 16 yr olds father. I really really really am disgusted
     Excuse me Society, Usually I am a really positive person. I try my best to Change my thought process when Im angy by picking out positive solutions.......When I watch Dr. Phil, you would think I was an idiot over some of the people that I feel bad for....I will absolutely go out of my way, even if its my worst enemy , I will try to ease a situation.

   HOWEVER, this episode, the daughter encountered Sexual Abuse from the Mothers husband. I have heard that woman alter her voice, I have watched her cry and absolutely no tears. I heard her say " I dont have to be here" "It is you who is running my name in the ground"

I am really really angry. I am angry because this woman doesnt deserve Dr. Phils help. Its not my daughter and I cried for the girl who encountered the abuse. This woman is a liar and I know by looking at her, she knew that her husband was doing that. She slipped it under the rug so she could keep her man. News flash, your daughter should be first. This woman tried to get the Audience to feel sorry for her. She kept saying I dont have to have you in my life.

This woman needs to be in PRISON........

I am literally nautious by this woman.

My daughter is being abused but not sexually, It is making my life a chaotic ball of emotions. The only emotions this woman had was the selfish thought of what people are saying. Her reputation.

Dr Phil, you cant help those who dont take the initiative to tell the truth and heal. Drop it like its hot. But the daughter, Thank you for helping her. She stays blessed..

          Dawno's Quote......     " When you find your Karma, fix it, and learn something today "

      I'm watching Dr. Phils episode of the Woman who faked pregnancys and has lots of restraining orders. Man that is the femal version of my daughters father.....Now I have to admit, Im definately by far NOT a perfect outstanding person, I know when I do something wrong, I immediately get advice on how to fix things. I immediately recognize my faults and actions and I carry that burden with me probably longer than the average person.

   The purpose of this Blog:

   Please recognize your practicing risky behaviors, you know that it is wrong. Why not stop for a minute and take the time to evaluate how your effecting the lives in your home, your co workers. If you have Children stop and pretend your looking into their little eyes and how horrible it would be if they was snatched away from you.

   Anyways I often say "Know your Karma" or "Find your Karma"

  Everyone has a belief, God, Lord, Jesus, Mary, Allah, Buddah , what ever you may think is the higher power, it is a sence of comfort and why judge people for who the choose to pray or worship as long as it doesnt involve harming natures....

  In addition to my beliefs there is a thing called Karma to me. My Karma was my daughters father.

  You see, I attended Middle school in the small Town of Ashville, Ohio. Sadly , when I was either 13 or 14, my Sister, cousins and I was on our way to Deer Creek and at an intersection called "5 points pike" we got hit by a truck. I dont remember how fast the truck was going, the only thing I remember is the Vision of my Sister Crouched stuck in the seatbelt, lifeless.....

  That happend in the summer. Then I went to the 7th grade, I became disinterested. Started experience substance addiction with Alcohol and marijuana. Skipping school, I would literally find the Bullies and Bully them just so I could get suspended. I snuck out and vandalized property with kitchen condiment concauctions. But because I lived this way, because I thought that this was the fun way to live, I now know that Todd was my Karma.

  All my guy buddies who had issues with their girlfriends would come to me, If that girl was a snob, or mean to people, I would sock the shTT out of them in their nose. I was mean and nasty to the people who was mean and nasty. Not to mention the status it gave me . Everyone thought I was a hero kind of. My nick name was SassParilla. My sisters nick name was Sas Parilla when she was in school too. They called her Sassy tho. Anyways out of high school later on, After some relationships gone wrong I met a guy from my job at Essilor.

   That man physically and Mentally abused me. He verbally abused me, he did all of the above to be honest. No details, I just know that he was my Karma. Though I thought I was doing good deeds, wasnt. I will never physically or mentally harm people, I know that.

 I brought this up because for one second Febuary 17th lady on the Dr. Phill show seems like she was damaged as a child. Like she was in an abusive household. She learned these behaviors and characteristics from someone or, even maybe in appropriate teenage relationships. I feel like there is an underlined issue behind this madness. I think that maybe the guy she was pregnant by actually did abuse her. Mentally. Unfortunately since she had a bad rep and the other 2 girls conspired against her , that is how the guy is getting off with telling society that is isnt him. That is her Karma though......She has a once in a life time opportunity and just gets up and walks off stage. That tells me she has no will to care to change the quality of her life. Like lady, get a clue, your caught so why not poor out the truth, it shall set you free. If you can not recognize your faults then you will not change. You will adapt. You may even get in more trouble by the law. I just want to talk to her myself lol.

Know your Karma and Change it People....

If you took the time to read this blog, thanks for that.



      In 2006 I took a stand. After almost a 6 yr back and forth battle with my abuser, I re gained my independance and went to my home County of Pickaway, Ohio where a Womens shelter was my only option. The Womens Shelter was a sad but warm loving place. My 2 Children and I would help feed some of the residence children because some of the mothers would sell their food stamps instead of feed their kids. Some of my childrens belongings was taken. Sometimes our food would come up missing. It was deffinately a struggle but we made the best of it. I dont regret it one bit. The Shelter (Havens House Circleville Ohio) was a safe place and all though some mothers did their job poorly, the staff was amazing. The support was amazing,they helped with money for a Lawyer. Please, if you are being mistreated Emotionally, Psychologically, Mentally of Physically, reach out and tell someone. Please, your life could depend on it. Once you notice those red flags, please leave. Stay gone. dont turn back. Please get help.

    Anyways, I became very independant. It was still a struggle. I immediately got a job, Found true love and my 2 children and I was a happy functioning family. Sadly after a 2 year custody battle, my abuser got custody of his daughter. My daughter.

     Here we are 9 years later and now my daughter is being abused Emotionally, Psychologically, Mentally, and it turned Physical in September and again in December.

     My goals are to get my daughter home. My daughter is a Victim and she doesnt deserve to live in an Un happy, Un healthy, Un loving, Un effectionate environment. I need help bringing her home. Her father has victimized more women than I can count in 9 yrs. Now he is doing it to our 13 yr old daughter. She lives in another State, I need her here at home with her family in Ohio. Here she has 3 siblings and they need to be growing up together.

     You will see me in the future. I want to help our children have rights in Ohio at 13. I want to bring my daughter home search #getmadisonhome. I want to raise money for these childrens mothers whom struggle and need help leaving the abuser. You will see me fight for the Children to participate in "thebakersact" . I am alive today for a reason. I must raise Awareness.

     If you took the time to read this, Thanks for that
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