I am so sick and tired of life.  

Went to see my doctor yesterda, changed up some meds - well, added a new med to see if it would help with my "fits" i guess you wou ld say.  Even my husband is getting tired of my tearfulness.  Buspirone and indomethacin for the pain.  Been dealing with the chest pain for a 13 days now..  FML. no one cares.. 506 days sober, 148 days no cigarettes, who cares.  WHO CARES