My mother is one of a kind. My mother has done a lot for me and I will never be able to thank her enough. She held my hand through two pregnancies; she has been there for me when everyone else walked away. Even though my mother always told me she loved me, I have always felt like a second-class citizen to her. Through those hard times for me and my mother, I felt that she felt that she had to do these things and that they were a huge pain in her butt, which I'm sure they were, but regardless I am her daughter, her family, her flesh and blood. I am sorry if I am not perfect, but please show me one person who is. My mother has demons of her own. Everyone does, mine just happen to be ones that I cannot hide, and wouldn't want to. My problems and poor judgments have made me who I am, and I am damn proud of the person I am today. I am honest, caring, loving and trustworthy. I have wanted so badly for her approval, for her affection. I have spent the last ten years trying to be "good enough" for my mother, to be what she wants. My mother is a completely different person than the woman the world see's on television. My mother can act very cold and harsh and constantly rubs the things she has done for me in my face. She is constantly making fun of me to her sister and friends telling them I am fake and such, acting like high school girls with nothing better to do than to put someone down in order to feel better about themselves. I feel like such a black sheep when it comes to my family. I admit I am no peach and I argue with my mom and have said mean things to her as well. I just want her to notice me, to love me, and have a relationship with me. I have to say I am jealous of what my sister and my mom have, they go to lunch and talk like girlfriends. My mom has always accepted my sister with open arms. My mom and sister are exactly alike which I am sure is a factor in why they get along so well. I am like my dad in so many ways and I can't help but feel like that factors into my mom resenting me as I feel she does. People can say what they want and they are entitled to their opinion whether they are right or wrong, but this is how I feel and I felt compelled to share my thoughts and feelings with you all.