I have notiiced so many different things happening with my brain now that it's not clouded. I do have impulsive ticks about me, but I'm getting healthier by the day, and life is going in the right direction. Thank you for your comment.

I have done so much growing to overcome all the trauma that's taken place in my life. I can proudly say I'm clean today and take my necessary medications, although my rage and mood changes have been non-exsistant, I still have my dreams that come into my reality. I thank you for saying this is a gift because it goes so much further than just sightings and voices.

Today is October 10, 2012



My name is Joshua and i have Undifferentiated Schizophrenia/Bipolar Disorder/ Obsessive-Compusive Disorder.  I used to drink and smoke pot to self-medicate.  I no longer do these things.  l take my meds EVERY day.  l am married and verry happy.  My symptoms are managable, and my using thoughts are weakening by the day.  l wrote this in hopes of finding some penpals.  l have lost many many friends now that l don't drink, go to bars, or parties anymore.  l am lonely. l am home alone all day long. My boys are in school, and my wife teaches all day long then officiates sports after school.  So, if you want to talk about anything from life, to parenting, to mental health, to friendship or whatever, Please Please write me. l would love to have some friends.


    Bye for now,



        Joshua

this was after i suffere years of abuse and was just going to jamaica to recover. in time to see light of day for 17 years. they deny it all. never acknowledged my life work jobs, healing or abuse. who is lying here.???

this was taken just as they began to assault my life. my body and mind healed from bulimia , about to enter start of hell.

THe face of what my father called a mentaly lll child . i had a perefect life. although everyone has to struggle i overcame and smiled until they got to me.

this is what my father said to me. he was trying to put a smile on my face. this man was hostel angry and morid. whats wrong with these pictures. if u saw me now after what they did . its sad

Not that taking care of the girl is not noble , and commedable, but if it were me, it would be different knowing what i went through as a placebo, with no illness and in end it caused me to become sick..  

 I dont have any more words. jsut sadness and greif for my own life. seeing the difference between a sick kid and a person who was traumatized by a lie and what it took my life to . Then after i got it all back they took it again. i am devistated. and can not think ..

I don't have time for the "change your mind" or the "try to convince you" dance, so here's the answer, plain and simple. Take a lesson from the John Nash story and struggle which was well doumented in the cinematic presentation. Help Jani learn to manage her own demons, as did Nash, and that is done by using math as language, which she is already doing to some degree. Begin by teaching her to add, subtract, multiply, and divide the 2's, 10's, and 11's, then the 5's, 9's, and 12's. Her own brain will then take over using the number patterns she recognizes, and she will then teach herself the 3's, 4's, and the rest. Also, give her picture puzzles as gifts, beginning with 24 piece all the way up to 100 piece as she gets faster at solving them. Her best option at family table games is dominoes, and always play with the double 12 set. These activities will quickly serve to develop her left brain hemisphere, the logical side, which will help balance the brilliant and over-abundant input from her right brain hemisphere, her creative, id-ridden, fantasy oriented side. Once balanced, Jani's superior brain, generating such a beautiful mind, will certainly end up making her parents rich, famous, and oh so very, very, proud of her. By the way, she'll be ready for algebra and geometry in less than a year...    Most Sincerely, Dr T

when my mother did their munchausen by proxy and family she went into a delusioal roll. getting attention from it and drama.. read my story. i cut them off. at least i can see what u saw. maybe she is munchause to..