2012 Shows

(Original Air Date: 04/04/12) To the world, four-time Olympic swimmer Amanda Beard was the picture of perfection: two-time gold medalist, gorgeous swimsuit model and sex symbol. But the 30-year-old American heroine says she was hiding a dark secret. Amanda pulls back the curtain and reveals to Dr. Phil that she was abusing cocaine and ecstasy, binging uncontrollably on food and cutting her body with an eyebrow razor. In her autobiography, In the Water They Can't See You Cry, the two-time American Swimmer of The Year opens up to Dr. Phil about her painful past and reveals how she conquered her demons by using the same strength that made her a champion. Joined by her husband and parents, hear how her life has changed! Then, Jacque says as a professional bodybuilder, she's used to being judged based on her looks, but she has a secret no one sees: she’s a binge eater who once gained as much as 14 pounds in a day. Can Jacque find the strength to overcome her disease? If you or someone you love struggles with an eating disorder or low self-image, tune in!

Find out what happened on the show.
Replied By: rhiann24 on Aug 2, 2012, 8:55PM
My daughter has struggled with anorexia since she was 18 she is now 24, at the age of 18 she weighed lbs and was admitted to UCLA psychiatric ward, leaving my child was the one of the hardest thing I have ever had to do.. she was there for 6 mths Did it help you may ask NO I want my beautiful,happy always smiling child back her life is consumed by an eating disorder and I don't no what more I can do. Nobody wants to help unless you have thousands of dollars which we don't, I want my daughter  to be happy and stop living a life through an eating disorder. HELP
Replied By: blotman on Aug 1, 2012, 5:57PM
I don't believe that anyone really gets over the demons that haunt you, I have tried but it always resurface when there is vulnerability ...............
Replied By: brelynnjuly78 on Aug 1, 2012, 2:25PM
Thank you Amanda for speaking out about depression and self-mutilation. I myself can totally tell how you felt while SI.  I too went for the arms and legs, but went even further, and turned to ,my chest, stomach, and even my face.  With every cut I was turning my emotional pain into physical pain, which I can handle.  Also like you, my last time  I went too deep.  I was in the bathroom, (my safe haven), and when I saw the entire bathroom turning red, I yelled for my husband.  He took me to the hospital to close the wound, and that is when I decided that I needed to go to rehab.  I ended up needed to go twice.  The first rehab clinc was in Chicago, and the second time I was sent to Texas, and I went leaving my two beautiful daughters and husband back home in Canada, which just made my depression worse.  I believe that is why I relapsed the first time.  But after that incident  in the bathroom, I knew right then that I didn't only need help for myself but for my family. 

So thank you so very much for sharing your story, and letting other people know that they are not alone!

Sincerely, Bree Pauli
Replied By: grateful80 on Aug 1, 2012, 12:28PM
Amanda & Dr. Phil- thank you for placing such an importance to tsis issue. Amanda I truly admire you for putting yourself out there for the world to see your soul. I have struggled with depression for over 3 years and high anxiety. My thoughts of body image and not being good enough overcome my daily thoughts on a minute to minute basis. I am still seeking help and live a day to day struggle. For those people who have left negative comments Iguess you've never heard of " if you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all".  You can not understand or compare other life experiences  to another human beings and belittling it. Unless you have experienced what this is like you will never understand, trust me no one in my life truly understands why I can't just get over it. Amanda thank you for being real and brave because I know this can be a day to day battle. You truly are an inspiration. sometimes I feel worse about myself because no one understands or thinks that I'm on a pitty party but they don't understand that if we could just snap out of it we would. Thank you foa coming out of your silence. Bless you!
Replied By: spamgirl on Aug 1, 2012, 11:08AM - In reply to msredhen
Hello msredhen,

I do not personally know what you went through being an mk, but I would like to offer you some encouragement. Have you read 'Too Small To Ignore' by Wess Stafford?  It appears his history may be similar to yours.  While his parents were missionaries in Africa, he attended a boarding school which turned out to be very abusive.  I know it doesn't make your situation any better, but maybe it will help you to know that there are many people that understand what you have experienced.
I hope you see this post, and it is helpful to you.
Replied By: lifecanbegood on Aug 1, 2012, 5:15AM - In reply to gastongirl1
i read your post about cutting.  i was hit by a drunk driver when i was 16.  my heart stopped 3 times while they were cutting the roof off the car to get me out. i met our Lord and wanted to stay there.  He told me I was not ready yet,  I had more to do here.  I lived the next decade, maybe more, like a wild person, cutting, fighting, driving 135 mph..  i wanted to go back..  it was a long road but i finally accepted life for what it is.  if you are cutting,  you want something different out of your life.  period.  and if you don't either chase what you want, no matter what the cost,   or accept where you are,  you will cut and cut and cut and it will get worse..  i cut my arm so bad that i almost died.  they had to fly a specialist in to sew my tendons back together.  i nicked an artery.  had a cast for a long time.  i went for counseling and it didn't do much, so i just had to sit down one day and really think.  do i want to spend my life like this? no.  please stop cutting.  please.  you are better than that.  Jesus loves you.  Please believe me.  I am Jim and I would love to talk to you.  Please.
Replied By: mashto on Apr 9, 2012, 1:26PM
I can almost relate to everthing talked about on the show except I am not a women.  It seems like all treatments and clinics are for women.  Men do suffer with this also.  Not just young men looking ot get in shape or whatever but older men (fifties).  Please help with some info and issues they need help with.
Replied By: jennysgram on Apr 9, 2012, 5:08AM - In reply to teddybear12345
My thinking to a T.  Sniff, sniff, boo-hoo.  I am so absolutely sated and totally disgusted with these pity party shows, and I WILL NOT watch any more.
Replied By: jennysgram on Apr 9, 2012, 5:03AM - In reply to kjdavid
I SO agree with you!!  This self-aggrandizement is beyond belief and so out of proportion in this world today.  Thanks for saying what you said!
Replied By: gastongirl1 on Apr 7, 2012, 1:42PM
I was 13 the first time that I cut myself. I am now 46 and still cutting. I use it as a punishment and just to feel anything. When I feel bad about myself I cut. When someone makes me feel bad about myself I cut. When I got married 23 yrs ago my husband knew that I had some mental health issues. I suffered with anorexia/bulimia for about 15 yrs and still sometimes resort back to the bulimia. 

I am very careful to cut in places that are not obvious to others. My husband doesn't know that I am still cutting. Sometimes I feel that if there is not enough blood that I failed and have to cut again. This is how I cope with what I'm feeling. I carry a razor with  me every where I go. Sometimes I think that I will be cutting the rest of my life. I am ashamed of what I'm doing but it's how I can feel when nothing else works.
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