I am a 45y old single parent, my husband died of melonome cancer july 2001, since then, I had trouble with my inlaws, that I have sorted out during these 7years that passed, but I'm battling with the dating situation, can not trust men, because I've met someone in 2008, thought he was the right guy for me, were engage to be married in Sept 2008, never happened, he went back to his ex wife twice, then I got a fright, after 2 months, I've met a very nice guy, full of fun, helped me forget about being hurt, but... he is only 30y old, we are the best of friends, he will do anything for me, make me feel better , makes life easier in every way, can't stand it if I'm battling with almost everything, sometimes it scares me, he does things, that I was thinking about to talk to him, for instance, I want to throw away my microwave, he fixed it, befor I even told him it was broken, he put in a roof fan, before I even asked him to do it... I'm just not use to anyone doing anything for me, I'm use to battle my way up, do things for myself, what now?  I just trown my hands up to God, thank Him for what is happening in my life, 'cause I want to enjoy every moment....for what its worth?

Watch Dr.Phil today and was so envious of the lady on the show today. I have trouble leaving my house and she got on a plane. I wish i could get over the fear of fear. I have fear of everything. I have missed out on so much in my life, my kids lives, my grandkids lives. It pains me to have miss out on so much of my childrens shcool adventures when the were little because of my fears. I missed out on my brothers weddings, my grandchildren get baptizism. The grandbabies plays at school.  It makes me so depressed because I have missed out on so much, and my family  has miss out on me being a affairs. As i sit here and see what I type it is so painful I feel I am never gonna be normal again. THis is my fate.
I go to the doctors and they say how is it going and as I speak they write out the scripts and ya me to death and say see you in two months. I feel like know one cares about  how I really feel.  It makes me have such a dishearted feeling about people. I could never let anyone I loved or anyone that paid me for a service to go through this and not want to help theme get better. Dr. phil asked the woman today, Your getting something out of this. I thought about that question and asked my self what am I getting out of this and the only thing I can think of is more pain is what I get and I dont want it. I know I am smart and have so much to offer but have know one to help me out of this whole. Its all such a catch22 for me.
People look at me and say you look fine and healthy and don't get it.  I know mine all started when my mom died when I was 18 and I had a 1 year old baby and was married. Then 7 years later dad dies. Then 3 years later my brother John dies and 33 from a heart attack. Then my brother Kevin dies at 46 in 2001 from melanoma. I know the deaths trigger this problem , but knowing why doesn't change what is.
This is the fate God has chosen for me , I feel I must of done something reall bad to piss God off and this is my pentants. God made my bed for me and I must lie in it.
Even though I know I am a good person, I am loving caring giving creative, and would do anyhing for anyone except for myself. But I can't get out the whole. As I always say " talkers don't do and : doers don't talk.....    LIVE TO LOVE>>>LOVE TO LIVE  HA

to dr. phill i'm not saying i'm fearless but i would love to spend the night in the tates murder house , i'm fastanated with charlie manson and his power over people

Change it it good or is it bad???

Hello everyone, it's been over a year since I have written, I was reall busy sewing and then takig care of my husband that lasted only 7 months.  I miss him so much and any deprpession I thought I had in the past  was just plane easy.  We were married 42 years, and I think my chest is going to break open and spill out. 
Thanks for listening, bigmamma

ANYONE : Cataplexy . Need help anyone!!!!!!! Can't get any answers . 9 years and all we get is the run around.
Live in Bakersfield, Califorina. Our sky is falling. Can't get an dx.except that were crazy.

Gee I need to get the hangof this I am trying to find weight loss buddies to help me and them too..but I do not think I am posting okay.

I am interested in stopping women from using children to punish the man they hate.

This should be unlawful and destroys the relationship with the children.

http://www.greghenrywaters.com/childfren  My Story

Greg

Support Fathers and not just alimony for an ungrateful wife.

My son is 29 and was dating a young girl 23 and as they were living in the moment, she got PG.
As the months have gone by she has become out of control acting as if she is a teenager, if my son goes to work or want 's to watch the footbal game( which) he includes her in she becomes inraged and starts throwing things ripping things of the wall ect.. one time she jumped on the freeway at 70 miles going in and out of traffic.
Her mother died when she was 7 and when her dad remarried when she was a teenager she still feels as if he left her for another women.
I am feelig that she is putting this child (now 5 months PG) in danger I have called the Doc. and other to find help,
Plaese Help   Kathleen

I heard he was.